It's been a long road, with appointments and specialists galore.
With no results. Me, being me, I researched on my own. I didn't feel the need to keep driving all over creation for the specialists to tell me to come back again and again.
Simply, I felt to keep billing our insurance. When I knew from my research, just one thing, one simple blood test would be all it took.
I went to my regular doctor and I requested this . She is amazing and will listen without judgement and then if I have a good suggestion, go with it.
What Rachel needed was this, a chromosomal karatype. Something very simple. Something that would save time, energy, money and needless other testing. A simple order from our doctor for a bood test. Something that would test our precious angel for over 130 different syndromes.
We have waited three weeks for the results. We have done research and looked into the two specific special needs we thought she may have. We were prepared. Nothing they could say would change how we feel for our beautiful girl though, regardless of the outcome.
After all, we had prayed for her and waited over a year to bring her home. She is ours, it didn't matter to us if she had some silly syndrome. What result on a piece of paper would change our love for her, our commitment or our passion to see that she gets everything out of life that she deserves?
not a single thing. We are her parents. Period. We will love her to the ends of earth and fight for our girl. End of story.
So, when I heard the phone ring on Friday and saw it was the doctor, I won't lie, I was nervous and scared, because with the two special needs we were told she may have, it would mean life changing things, but the one single sentence she said just made me break down and cry and fall on my knees.
"You have a 100% normal geneticly female girl."
She will still need several surgeries throughout her life for her special needs that we did know about but we will get through that with prayer and patience. And now we are educated about other special needs for whatever else may happen along .....
"Orphans are easier to ignore before you know their names. They are easier to ignore before you see their faces. It is easier to pretend they're not real before you hold them in your arms. But once you do, everything changes. " ~Anonymous~